“Let him who boasts, do so in the knowledge of God!” 2 Corinthians 10:17
Pride comes before a fall, and everything I have learned on the subject says. The prideful are those at adversity with Jehovah, The Creator of the universe.
In this life we have trials, troubles, pain, failures, and accomplishments. We can reap many rewards from our efforts. Being able to regain the use of my legs after my accident is one of my most important accomplishments, of my life.
I can’t take credit for such a feat. I can’t give credit to the physicians, nor physical therapists. Yoga teachers, acupuncture, chiropractor, or my own strength to keep getting out of bed each day. Stretching and soaking through the most painful moments.
The pills, and drugs they prescribe only give temporary relief, but when they wear off. The pain comes back with a vengeance.
Although these treatments are never in vain, it leaves my heart and mind wondering if and when it will ever end. I want to “Walk and not grow faint, run and not grow weary.” Isaiah 43 But how can I do so when suffering in agony?
Where are you my God? Where is your healing touch? Am I, Like Jacob to forever limp through this life? Until the day of my death? Though I am perplexed, I will not give up hope. Your discipline and lessons give me strength to continue. Even through these darkest of times. I know you are with me, as you were with David in his trials. Psm 23.
Dear Lord. Inspect my heart, mind, and soul. Show me when I continue to fail. Teach me your ways, so I may walk, run, and play, in your healing grace.
I’m sorry that I try so hard to do it on my own. Only through you, and your son, Jesus aka Emanuel. Do I know you are still with us.
If you’re reading this. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to fight these battles.